"There was a time in my life where for some reason, all the joy left. I have heard the words "being in a dark place", but I must admit I did not understand it until I felt it myself. It actually felt like everything in my life was being experienced through a filter that made everything dark and heavy. I did not know what to do at that time. I had always heard about reaching out, but I did not feel comfortable sharing these feelings with others. Actually, the hardest part is that I did not understand the feelings, or why, or how I go to that point, so it was difficult to share. At that time, my partner was trying to help as much as possible, and they recommended just checking out some assistance programs. I did not feel comfortable talking with someone face to face, and at the time I felt too overwhelmed with other things (work, life, school) that I did not feel I had the time to go to counselling. So instead, I mustered up the guts to use the online assistance program, which allowed me to communicate with a professional through email, which I found was the easiest thing for me. It almost felt like I was writing for myself, but getting feedback and support from someone who could help. This person guided me and helped me understand my feelings, and eventually I was comfortable and feeling better enough to talk face to face with someone. And this has been the best decision in my life (cliche, I know), but this helped me gain coping skills that I have used throughout, including the ability to reach out again when I felt similar feelings. If you ever feel like this, I remind you, you are not alone, and I send you all the strength and support to make that one phone call, that one email, or to reach out that hand and say " I am not ok, I need help". I promise, someone is there looking for that hand, and will help you."